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Lost AloneLiving in this world alone,
Trying hard to find my home
All I ever feel is lost,
For someone else I've paid the cost.
I look around and everyone's there,
But I feel as if nobody cares
They see a side that I choose to show,
No one tries to look deep below.
Nobody knows who I am
I doubt that anyone can
Even when I'm in the light
My thoughts walk through the night
Is there a way out of this hole?
A way to gain more control?
If there is, someone show me
Or forever stuck I will be.
Journey TogetherI fall further into the dark,
Somewhere unknown the deepest part
But this is where I want to be,
Lost in you, forever with me.
Every step a mystery so far,
Yet it took us to where we are
I feel your touch, I can't forget
And this journey is just beginning yet.
I would do anything for you,
And you know it's true,
Just to see you smile,
Feel your love for a little while.
You give me more than I ask,
You make this love last.
You are perfect in every way,
And you are beautiful everyday.
Forever might be far still,
But my love shall stay, it will!
We are lost on this journey together,
But I love my perfect forever.
Away From YouTravelling down this endless road,
Moving further away from home,
Street signs are flying by;
Wish you were at my side.
Street lights shine on the way,
Brings me back to the day
When we were young, without fear
With no care, you were here.
Be safe when I get back,
I pray to you God;
She is the only thing I lack
When I'm away from home.
Every call and every text
Remind me of the times I missed;
Chances to be with you,
Even with nothing to do.
As I go, you're on my mind,
Looking back when I have time.
When we finally turn around,
Thoughts of you become sound.
I know we are where we're supposed to be,
But it hurts just the same.
Every prayer and line are for you.
Two FacedOn the right you seem
Perfect and clean;
But your left is cold,
Full of scars that grow old.
You're a two faced liar
You make me wanna scream
If you get any higher
You'll wish it was a dream
You can't hold this facade
One mistake and you will fall
Good try on this endeavour
But you have just lost it all
Beware the truth you hide
All you cover up with a lie
Just wait your fall can't be too far,
It will hurt just like the bitch you are.
It's In The Little ThingsWe know what we want,
But do we know what we need?
Searching for an obvious display,
Yet missing its very seed.
Sometimes we're annoyed
By the slightest wrong,
Yet to forget about it
Takes ten times as long.
Take some time and step back
And look at the details of life;
Life is full of little things
That make everything alright.
Even a compliment missed,
A smile as you walk by,
Even just to have life
Can change you inside.
Don't get caught up
In the maze of our lives;
Appreciate the little things
And enjoy feeling alive.
MasqueradeIn this place, we like to hide;
Push our failings to the side.
With a mask we hide our face,
Restricting us to a tiny space.
Welcome to the masquerade of life;
Nothing is wrong, nothing is right.
Prisoners of our own disguise,
To lose the mask reveals our lies.
No one knows who they are:
This Charade has gone too far.
A speck of truth, within this crowd,
A shattered mask is much too loud.
Don't be fooled by this spell
Many have been and they fell.
This masquerade has doomed us all.
I Feel It TooWhite squares covered in red,
Seeing this fills me with dread,
I can't comprehend the pain we feel,
But sometimes I wish it weren't real.
As I look in from the door
At the shape across the floor
Tears start to fill my eyes
And it rids my head of empty lies.
I wonder where did I go wrong,
Even if I didn't know them long,
Knowing a friend feels this pain
Kills me inside, drives me insane.
If sometimes you feel you're alone,
Or even just your has grown;
Don't forget that is not true,
There's always someone here for you.
The pain of my friends hurts me most,
Making me feel like I'm a ghost.
You might not see me, but I am there,
And always know that I do care.
Divided Against A Blackened SkyDivided against a blackened sky,
No idea where my loyalties lie;
I've been outcast by the people I knew:
I can't find anyone who will stand true.
I fought beside them for so long
I don't know where I went wrong
Now I'm left here alone
Never have I been so far from home.
Walking by myself in the dark
My soul is tearing apart.
Feeling longing for what I lack
But I know I can never go back
Even as the darkness closes in,
This is where I'm supposed to begin
I cannot live, yet I will not die
For I'm divided against a blackened Sky.
The Mask I WearThe poison within me is all I feel,
It's the only part of me that's real;
It courses through my veins from day to day,
And the cure is what I neglect to say.
You look at me: I seem happy a lot,
But to seek inside is what you forgot.
Don't be fooled by the great mask I wear:
The mask that I show everyone out there.
With it, you see what I want you to see,
And I try to hide what's inside of me.
Take some time to chip away at my mask,
Then you'll see through me as if I were glass.
It might take time, it might be right away,
You might need to try in a different way;
Just don't give up on me, you're all I need
To throw off the mask that I hold with greed.
If you want to know why I can't let go,
You need to find what I refuse to show.
If I show you, there is one thing I pray:
That you won't leave me here, that you will stay.
For if you go away you break all my trust,
And my other masks will be hard to bust.
Be that one for me, the one that will care;
I say, don't be fooled by the mask I wear
I KnowI know what you really think of me
I know you want me gone
I know whenever my mouth opens you cringe
I know you think I’m stupid
I know you wish I would die
I know people hate me
I know I’m really stupid
I know I don’t get you
I know you don’t get me
I know you wish we really never met
And I’m sorry...
SadnessSadness had always been an active resident in the places I had lived.
It swelled and breathed and scented the breeze like the dying petals of spring,
floating through open windowpanes and settling like dust on the empty shelves.
Sometimes it just appeared without visible entry like the cobwebs that roost in those corners you had thought so clean just a day ago. Or it unraveled in the morning dew and graced the cold spring skies, scattered like hundreds of wandering stars only visible in the light of a window.
It would melt into my morning tea, cooling the little tornadoes of cream and sugar that spun around my spoon and it would pass behind my pupils as I stood before the bathroom mirror.
I could hear it at night like an insect, clicking across my skull, etching tallies in the walls like a prisoner counting the days without the sun.
Sadness swelled and breathed and surrounded me until I was certain that it was simply a part of my being; the part as close to myself as my skin and my bon
TogetherWhen I'm with you it looks like
things are getting better.
But when I look outside
black clouds are raining fire.
When I look in your eyes
this world just slips away.
And all the nights' wars and famines
can't touch me in my Utopian day.
Hold me in your warm embrace,
I've found a place to hide.
Let's just be our own world,
and never look outside.
Let us be together
when it seems that we will die.
Let's hold each others' hands
while the clouds are raining fire.
Slam my fist against the wall
When I can't take it anymore
Will the sun shine on me again?
Wind blow, rain fall
I face it all, there is still hope
Soon enough it will pass
Boom, crash all night
I fight with myself
Just dark skies out
Every kind of silence
It is killing me
It took me long to realize that I am still here
Hide, run but can't leave
Losing my grip on life
Only a miracle can help me now
It's Christmas Eve and I am all alone
All I wanted for Christmas was something you couldn't wrap
Something that truly came from the heart
No ordinary gift can help
It needed to be special
Special enough to make my troubles go away
Then it happened you walk into my life
I knew you were different
A vibe that makes you feel like having a smile on your face all the time
I think I got to the point I have found myself again
I have called and you've answer
I have fallen and you pick me up
That gift is...
Searching for MeNever really been myself most of the time,
Acted like a goof and a lost cause to make you laugh,
You have thought I'm an idiot, a fool and a depressed soul,
But that is not who I truly I am.
I've lived a life as a shadow,
Adapting like a chameleon to my surroundings,
Helping people feel better I believe is my call,
But whatever I try makes you think I'm heading for an even greater fall,
The true me is something that even i myself has a forgotten,
I hope I discover it again before getting the last nail smacked into my coffin.
People believe that change it good,
And nothing can remain the same,
Thus eagerly I wait for my change,
So I might have a chance to find,
The old me that I left o so far behind.
I will continue to search till the day I die,
I pray that same it might just some by,
So I can bid this shade a goodbye,
And become true and not live a lie,
As the ink in my pen begins to dry,
All I can do is wait, sigh.
PainThe bitter pain
of thinking and thought
The bitter pain
of knowing you might leave
The bitter pain
of knowing the end will come
The bitter pain
The bitter pain
The bitter pain
I Need You Now
I need you now
I think of you
I wish you were true
I Need you
I need you now
I wanna feel that too
that feeling of love between me and ..who?
You are missing, I need you
I need you now.
I wanna be there too
Where love is in the air
but its not fair!
cuz I cant find you,
Where are you?!!
I need you,
I need you now
I wish youd come soon
to complete that half moon
Catch me, hold me tight, and dont let go
cuz I wanna let you know,
that I need you
and I need you now.
When one door closes...I’ve heard the saying
When one door closes, another opens,
I felt the disconnect and the lock clicked shut
It closed for just a moment
Then opened so hard
That it spun me
I went down in a haze of mixed emotions,
Not over my loss but feeling for you,
My wants mangling each other,
Eating each other alive,
Until there was nothing left
When the tears stopped
and you were there, waiting
I ran toward you
Wanting change, wanting freedom
Embracing an uncertain future
Your eyes were like the ocean
A swirling punch bowl of blue and white,
So inviting in their dance
So severe was the pull of your undertow
That I dove right in
Without a life preserver
Through your door I swam
With a tail like a mermaid
Propelling me face first
Into your warm water embrace,
With a smile
Meant just for you
It wasn’t what I wanted
At the time...
It was unexpected,
It was love laid out at my feet
In a trail of hot sand
That burned my toes
Until you carried me
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tears
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
Sinking aloneGasping for every breathe I take,
Dreading all the mistakes I'll make,
I hope I do everything right
I don't want to lose this fight.
Each bad choice takes me away,
And every time I fade away.
I lose myself in this mess,
And sometimes I could care less.
Life goes on, I watch it go,
Some things I can't change, I know.
I try to hold on to every chance I get,
But I can't do it all, my time is set.
I must give up some things I would like
To look at things to live my life right
I don't care if you like what I choose,
Because in the end, I've got nothing to lose.
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